Another Month, Another Negative

Well, the title says it all - we are not pregnant again this month. This SUCKS - plain and simple. We felt so good about everything this time, I ovulated, the timing seemed perfect, the swim team was great. In all seriousness, I think I have a fertility problem. More than the fact that I need to buy sperm. It took my mom a really long time (like 5 - 6 years) to have my brother and I, and since I am like her in so many ways, I think I have the same issues. The problem is compounded by the fact that as my doctor so nicely put it - "you don't just have access to sperm 24/7 which makes things even more difficult."

So, where do we go from here? We will try one more time in August - I have to take a month off in between due to the fact that my ovaries need to calm down from the meds. Plus we'll be in Disney. We can't go to a specialist because then my insurance won't cover it. We found this wonderful loophole where my insurance will cover monitoring to "diagnose" the problem, but will not cover the inseminations or seeing a Reproductive Endocrinologist. Since my meds alone are around $2000 a month and the monitoring (ultrasounds/bloodwork) is right close to that as well, clearly there is no way we can afford that. IVF and adoption are out of the question as well, unless we win the lottery or something. Nevermind the fact that this upcoming cycle will be the 6th cycle on injectibles. No one really knows the long term effects of these drugs and I think my body is about done with them.

Well, let's keep our fingers crossed that maybe try #9 in August will be the one - at that point we will have been TTC for 2 1/2 years. If it isn't, we'll have to make a decision as to whether or not we seriously pursue foster care, or just be happy living our lives together - just us. Who knows.....